under the same sky

i can never comprehend
how often God thinks of me
*for His thoughts are innumerable
they outnumber the grains of sand
and now
under the same sky
i'm thinking of you
and i miss you so

*psalms 139:17

Psalm 69 /swallowed in the sea - coldplay

1 Save me, O God,
for the waters have come up to my neck.

2 I sink in the miry depths,
where there is no foothold.
I have come into the deep waters;
the floods engulf me.

I am not a fish

I’ve been sort of underwater lately.
What do i mean by being underwater?
I can't swim and can barely float.
How far I can go depends on how long I can hold my breath
because I don’t know how to breathe when I’m trying to keep afloat.
When you are submerged,
it’s like being in another world.

I can't quite describe the feeling.
It's like as if your ears are all plugged up
and your vision is blur.
I suppose you can say that it is like being out of one’s element.
Whenever I think about the big move next summer
I’m inundated by the uncertainties,
and anxieties come in like waves threaten to drown me.
I know that all i need to do is to throw myself backward
and relax,
for the water will lift me up and support me.
This used to be my favorite position even though i can't swim, and this is what faith is about:
to let go and let God.

What is life?
It is the flash of a firefly in the night.
It is the breath of a buffalo in the wintertime.
It is the little shadow which runs across the grass and loses itself in the sunset.

- Crowfoot

what's in your name?/ michelle ma belle

guess what?
i walked into the grocery store this morning
and they were playing "michelle ma belle" and it was special...
God was looking down on me with a huge grin on His face.
Zephaniah 3:17 came to my mind:
"the Lord your God is with you,
He is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
He will quiet you with his love,
He will rejoice over you with singing."

honestly i don't know the lyric of this song
as people always sing the first two lines whenever i introduce myself.
Why Michelle?
Yes I was given a Chinese name,
but when i was 19 i wanted an English name for my baptism -
i was the first in my family to embraced Christianity.
(Dad was not informed of my baptism because mom said he might kill me if he got wind of it)
one day i came across a book titled Michelle
and the cover was a girl sitting on the wheelchair.
It was a true story of courage and hope of this girl name Michelle.
i have always been timid and cowardly so i chose her name,
and hope that someday i'll have the courage
to face whatever challenge come my way.

few years ago i found out that the meaning of Michelle is
"Who is like God?" and i like that very much.

Turn! Turn! Turn! (to everything there is a season)/ Beatles

Ecclesiastes 3

There is a time for everything, a season for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die. A time to plant and a time to harvest.
A time to kill and a time to heal. A time to tear down and a time to rebuild.
A time to cry and a time to laugh. A time to grieve and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones. A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
A time to search and a time to lose. A time to keep and a time to throw away.
A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak up.
A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace.

What do people really get for all their hard work?
I have thought about this in connection with the various kinds of work
God has given people to do.
God has made everything beautiful for its own time.
He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so,
people cannot see the whole scope of God's work from beginning to end.
So I concluded that there is nothing better for people than to be happy
and to enjoy themselves as long as they can.
And people should eat and drink and enjoy the fruits of their labor,
for these are gifts from God.

And I know that whatever God does is final.
Nothing can be added to it or taken from it.
God's purpose in this is that people should fear him.
Whatever exists today
and whatever will exist in the future has already existed in the past.
For God calls each event back in its turn.

what's the time for me?